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{February 12, 2013}   Suspension Reflection

I haven’t done a suspension since October last year, but its something that is on my mind several times a day despite how often i do them. From the start i knew they were something i would fall in love with, something i would cherish like a precious gift but what i didn’t know was how i would change as a person simply by doing them, and being part of the community we have here.

Confidence has been my biggest issue, my size has always effected me and in a world where appearance means so much.. i was never “hot stuff” to a shallow country. I count my blessings everyday that i know the people involved with Skindependent. Time and time again i get to be surrounded by people who really don’t give a shit about how you look. Not just the team, but the other people who suspend. In that hall, your gender, sexuality, political views, the way you dress, the way you adorn your body or your choice to not do.. none of it matters. You are a person in your entirety and you are welcomed with open arms for just being you. You become part of a greater family, a place where being yourself is encouraged and you aren’t judged on the things that we are judged on on an everyday basis. No one cares how much money you make, or any petty little thing like that because you are accepted for who you are. There are very few places that you can go, that everyone will applaud you, tell you that you did amazing, that you looked amazing and so happy.. complete strangers are awe-struck and they aren’t afraid to tell you so. You become friends with people from all walks of life and you learn to accept people as they are because nothing else really matters. In the short time ive been part of this community i have seen more beauty in the world than i ever noticed beforehand because i no longer see the world as it was.. i see it as it is in its entirety.

I breathe suspensions, i live suspensions everyday… each day there is a new post, a new video, a new picture.. of something beautiful and jaw-dropping. The more i do the more i love and the more i appreciate the dedication that goes in to organising these events. I see videos, or read blogs of people all around the world. And even if i have never met them, they become familiar to me, part of a greater family that i haven’t had the pleasure in meeting yet. I watch their struggles and their achievements and i glow with pride because i can feel what they feel, i know what its like because i’ve done it. I know the pain, the ache, the tug, the pull, the lift, the happiness, pride, achievement, glory of overcoming something and i also know the disappointment, the hurt and the drive to do better next time. I glow with pride because i know how much it means to get up, to be around the most beautiful people you have ever met, to learn, to grow and to be something more than you ever thought you could be. I glow with pride because even if i don’t know the person, i feel like i know them and i’m proud of what they do and who they are.

It doesn’t matter if its your first time or your hundredth, it doesn’t matter if i know you or not because i will cry tears of joy for you because suspensions are one of the most amazing things in the world to me and the people who are part of it make it that much more amazing for me. A million strangers in the world and i will pat you on the back and tell you how fantastic you did because its what i truly believe.

Being part of something that is so incredibly special, has made me a better person and i’ve learned to appreciate life and art and love in a way i never thought possible. Its not just the act of suspension that makes me do this time and time again but its the family that i have joined.

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